t r i g g e r s ⚡️

t r i g g e r s ⚡️ for anyone in recovery, it’s a real thing. And it’s likely going to always happen, no matter how healed from your trauma you are, or how recovered you are.

LIFESTYLEAshley DoroughOctober 5, 2020triggers, eating disorder recovery, body acceptance, more than foodComment

This is healing....Episode 2

Today, for the first time in years I did some at-home movement for joy and grounding. No rules, no expectations. No obsessions.

LIFESTYLEAshley DoroughJuly 29, 2020mental health, eating disorder recovery, exercise recovery, health at any sizeComment

Weight Gain During Covid19

True story 👉🏼 these denim shorts were loose on me last Summer. During this time at home I’ve been working really hard on being okay with sitting in my thoughts. I’ve been working on boundaries. I’ve been working on compassion with myself.

BREAKTHROUGH // I Love Cereal and That's OK

LIFESTYLEAshley DoroughMarch 15, 2020special k, cereal, anti diet culture, diet culture, eating disorder recovery, disordered eating, intuitive eating, healthyComment

NEDA Week 2020 // A Reflection on My Experience

trigger warning: eating disorders/body dysmorphia/excessive exercise 👉🏼 Several times in my life I have embarked on a “lifestyle change” with the hopes of finally feeling worthy. Each of those times, I’d get more and more addicted to the control I had, so where exercise should have been done for joy, and eating done for nutrition and enjoyment... instead everything was done from a place of hate, disgust, and punishment.
There were times I would exercise 3 hours a day. I’d only eat protein shakes for most of my meals and I’d log EVERYTHING. I’d weigh morning and night, measure every body part daily and keep the measurements at my bedside in a notebook.

LIFESTYLEAshley DoroughFebruary 28, 2020eating disorder, eating disorder recovery, body positivity, self love, postpartum, depression, exerciseComment

Exercising While Recovering from Chronic Dieting

Ya’ girl got a shower 😅👏🏻!!! (Guys, I promise showers happen around here but then past few days have been ROUGH ... more in stories). @beyondyoga sent me these leggings and top to try since they carry 1X-3X now and they are legitimately the comfiest ever!!

LIFESTYLEAshley DoroughJanuary 20, 2020exercise, eating disorder recovery, body positivity, body acceptance, yoga, yoga pantsComment

The Truth About Diets

PSA: just because you decide you want to follow a diet, doesn’t mean you’re a terrible person. It doesn’t mean I won’t be your friend. And it doesn’t mean you should feel ashamed.
Hear me out:

LIFESTYLEAshley DoroughJanuary 15, 2020healthateverysize, diet culture, eating disorder recovery, healthy, body acceptanceComment

Questioning Diet Culture // Thoughts from LA

✨ I have an inbox with several messages right now questioning diet culture. 👉🏼👉🏼👉🏼👉🏼 it’s so easy to get caught up and confused in the anti-diet movement and until you’ve REALLY navigated through the layers of your own self it can be super confusing. It still is for me sometimes.

LIFESTYLEAshley DoroughJanuary 4, 2020diet culture, mental health, eating disorder recovery, body positivityComment

Hi, My Name's Ashley

Hi, my names Ashley and my stomach is fat. There’s never been a time in my life where I wasn’t self conscious about my belly. Even 100 lbs ago, when body dysmorphia ruled my life, it was something I was ashamed of.

LIFESTYLEAshley DoroughDecember 13, 2019body image, body acceptance, body positivity, self love, eating disorder recoveryComment

I Have a Problem // #breakingupwithdietculture

{CW/TW: diet & disordered eating} I just did something I could have never imagined I’d have to force myself to do.

I just went to the grocery store and made myself buy food that is easy to make, and food that I know I will eat. Food that I’ve avoided for so many years now that I felt like I was committing a crime as I paid the cashier.

TRUE LIFE // THE DIET CULTURE DIARIES part two

A few months ago, Weight Watchers announced their children’s diet app and it ignited a fire within this entire community. I asked you all for your diet culture stories, and this is part two. My hope is that by sharing these, we will continue to fight the weight stigma that has affected all of us medically, emotionally, physically and mentally. To read a little more about my story and the first round of anonymous stories, click here.

LIFESTYLEAshley DoroughOctober 25, 2019diet culture, eating disorder, eating disorder recovery, weight watchers, dieting, nutritionComment

The "F" Word

👉🏼FAT👈🏼 this is a word I have struggled with my whole life, ever since that dumb boy made fun of my “fat legs” in 2nd grade.

When the word FAT started being talked about more in the body positive community I had a really, REALLY hard time with it. I’ve been working on it. But this one word has probably been the hardest thing for me to be accepting of.

Beach Body Confidence // The Steps I Took

I’m not always super confident in this swimsuit but I wear it. I wear it because I deserve to rock a two piece just like anyone else. I wear it because I’m no longer trying to hide anything and I love my scars. And I wear it because it’s important to me that we NORMALIZE ALL BODY TYPES.

Exercising Postpartum // #nobeforeandafters

oday was the first time I stepped foot into a gym in over a year. Today, when I walked through those doors, I loved my current self. I didn’t walk in to that building ashamed of my appearance, feeling like I’d done something wrong. Instead, I went because I know it makes me a better person.
I saw the workout equipment, took a deep breath, and went for it. The entire time I worked out I had to tell myself “this is for your mental health” instead of “gotta lose the baby weight.”

10 More Weeks

10 more weeks of people asking me if I’m having twins 🤦🏼‍♀️
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This has happened to me several times, and again today. I really try not to let these things bother me, and today I didn’t get mad, or upset, but as soon as I got in the car I realized I felt completely deflated. Like something is wrong with me and I’m not doing something right.

LIFESTYLEAshley DoroughSeptember 7, 2018pregnancy, plus size and pregnant, mom life, diet culture, eating disorder recoveryComment